I'D RATHER B H8ED 4 WHO I AM, THEN LUVD 4 WHO IM NOT

I just dont get here enough

2008-04-28T22:37:00.002-06:00

Here I am! I just dont get here enough! I really have nothing to complain about and when things are great I feel like I am gloating instead of updating.

Kids are great, Husband is great! Marriage is great! SSSOOOO!

What else is there?
The elections that are crazy right now. obama or Hillary? Well I am leading to Obama witch is different than where I started. We need a president that is for change. Alot of what he is saying is much like Kennedy. That brings me to the assaination issue. I wouldnt be surprised if some back woods character from down south is so angry about a black man being president wouldnt lead us to another assaination.

The weather.... crazy, yes. Global warming and should I be more green? I think the eartyh has been warming and cooling itself for a while and with what we do to our world I quite agree we are hurrying it along. However I dont think that my pollution is contributing as much as jets, and factorys and nuclear waste from large companies not to mention corporate America. They are just not the same but I try to do my little part.

I will not however be paying the city 6 bucks a month to come pick up my recycling when I can take the cans down and make a little flow.

I have to close. Just becasue I am not posting doesnt mean I am not reading.

Another day another load of laundry! Off I go!

Forgiveness

2008-01-18T13:48:00.000-07:00

It was recently brought to my attention that I may not have forgiveness. I was baptized a about a year ago. I have been clean for 2 years. I fear that forgivness by God does not mean forgiveness by man. Some still see the person I once was. How do you achieve ultimate forgiveness. I repent. I think that the God has forgiven for my previous ways. People are not so easy. How do you erase the past. Impossible yes I know. I try to show with my ways I am not who I was. I stand by the title ofthis blog. I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not. I just wish people knew in their hearts I am worth forgiveness. My real friends know just what damage I have caused but I have choosen to go down another path. I am not making excuses for myself. There where a lot of different circumstances then.

Another part of that is why do I care what people see? I was never one who cared what people thought. Why now? Now that things are finally right in life why do I care?

I was wrong and I am sorry for anyone I wronged. I am me and that is all I can be. I want to put the past behind me, but I struggle to do so. When is repentance enough. When will they all forget so I can focus on the future?

I am finally happy, my marriage is finally great, my kids finally have the mother they where suppose to have. Why do I feel it is still not enough......

2008-01-04T12:41:00.000-07:00

As I reflect on the year past and the one on its way I have so many questions. It was a great year. The kids are bigger we can do more with them and they are developing these wonderful personalities. They are just getting to be more fun. So do I want another one? I do you know the little pink human coming into the world is a great thing BUT! am I done with diapers and more bills and another big question..... Working? LAst night I was watching this thing on the home channel. We would really like to buy something, if I was working it would be a little more better deal.The average home in Anchorage is 250 k to 300k for something with land. ect. NAthan continues in the union and with his schooling so he continues to get raises. We continue making more and more but then I think we spend more and more. Plus he is supporting a 4 person family on his own. That could be a lot of pressure. HE is happy with the way things are. He wants me to stay home like his mother did and raisse the kids plus Grace will be going to school soon so maybe then but that is still 2 years away. Another point; I was listening to an old sermon the other day saying how being a stay at home mother is the most gratifying and the best for your kids, witch in so many ways I agree but I havent worked in what 3 1/2 years and sometimes miss that life outside of the house feeling. I could get more involved with the church and try helping out there more but again I wouldnt be contributing to getting a home or our trip to Vegas in this year. Our first vacation with the kids. Some of my friends whom I truely trust say I am not missing much with the owrk thing, but in a way I still feel like I am. I am not going to complain the whole blog. I am thinking of maybe finding a job I can do from home. Like transcription. Like a medical transcriber. I am not sure but I am going to investigate just what that takes. Also Grace just woke up and got herself dressed and gives me the best feeling first thing in the morning and I wouldnt trade that...... I am just saying..... maybe this year no resolution I am not going to get right....... maybe something bigger... for me to do for all of us....?

couple of questions.

2007-12-04T11:56:00.000-07:00

SO I am balancing 3 blogs right now but trying to remain true in all. I know myspace tends to get me a little wild becasue lots of those are friends from the past.

This one is almosta different setting without the wild side. Peaceful.

I can talk about different things, like my church.

I am having a question, about just that. My church is a charasmatic church, non denomenational. Cant spell today. ANyway. What I have scene is that it almost turns people off when they see things they dont get. Like jumping up and down and people yelling out becasue the holy spirit strikes them. I am not speaking ill of anyone or judging them for this. My thing is this. It turns people away when they dont understand what is going on. Like if I where to bring a friend that might freak them out. Now does that freak me out? NO! But does it mean God is not speaking to me or that I am not Christian enough? I know the answer is no, then I go to Why? I often get goose bump type things but it isnt like the others yelling out and what not. My motto is to keep it simple.

My other thing is I am in a bible study of older Christian women. They have walked in this holy path longer and I see they condemn themselves for every little short coming. These are women I think are wonderful women I will probably never be as good as them so how can I live up to that.

My thing is bringing many good people to the Lord but I want to go into a bar and save everyone of them, a place these women would never go. So how can I balance that. My dad works in a strip joint. He sees how the Lord has changed me but if I went in all high and mighty I wouldnt be able to convey his message at all. I am not saying these women are perfect, or behave that way. I just want to be realistic.

Jesus hung out with prostitutes and tax collecters, should I not try that first? NOt so extreme but still be me? and be with my real people as a real person?

So where is the balance?

OK I Am thinking I might give blogger another chance

2007-11-18T21:26:00.001-07:00

well I dont know if I can keep up with the myspacing and this one but some people dont know about this one so I might be able to write stuff about them..... just kidding.

We where just playing Harry Potter on the Wii and it is so great. You get to use the wand and do your own spells. Love'n it. Gage is still at it.

My man is far away about 100 miles out side of Nome and he is hate'n it. He probably wont be home for turkey day. Oh well we will go to my uncles then maybe home early and rest. Who knows where the Friday will lead us.

Grace is in the tub now and thats why I am starting on this blog. I kept forgetting the password. I have passwords for everything from the bank to the cable company to blogs it is crazy.

Tomarrow I am going to try to find a book called Gods Blog. Ill let you know if it is any good.

here i am

2007-02-06T11:16:00.000-07:00

Its been such a long time since I blogged here. But i dropped in to see if anyone noticed. So here I am.

2006-08-23T19:41:00.000-06:00

Hey I am just letting everyone know where I am.

I am http://blog.myspace.com/jonezin4truth

yep thats me. Please see me there I am always writing about my life of adventure.

Bannannas

2006-07-29T00:51:00.000-06:00

A DAY IN THE LIFE OF TAB
HAS ANYONE EVER HEARD IT WAS BAD LUCK TO HAVE BANNANAS ON A BOAT? Nate has always told me that. Guess my dad hadn't heard.
Day started as a really normal day. My pop called and was going to Wittier with his boat for the first time and since we couldnt get any DMV stuff done yet, we decided to go.
All was good, he got us out in the water we got poles in the water . It was a beautiful day!!!!!!! Nathan saw a bear just before the tunnel, one of those sightings I of course couldnt "sight". After a while t the kids where wanting to get off the boat so we decided to pull over to the beach.
.... my dad and Seren get off first, I hand Dad, Grace and just then,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, a huge ferry, the one that carries the cars and people goes by and the waves start pushing and pullingthe boat in all directions. oh yeah, Dad is just holding the rope, I jump out and BAM! Nate and Gage where still in the boat. The water came in about 4 feet with every wave and of course suckiing it back out with every wave. AND into the rock wall and Seren grabs the baby and heads for high ground. (In her eyes saved Graces life) So there we are me and my dad trying to hold the boat beijng jerked down into the water and unable to keep our stance on the shale rocks. Gage is standing mid boat screaming! Tears just stream'n down. Nathan is getting jerked side to side with nothing to hold on to. I am looking at him because I figure he's the only one of us that knows what to do! Really none of us knew what to do. The boat took on a lot of water from the waves and NAte gets up and pushs Gage off the bow. Says "run when you hit shore" The whole time waves beating everything including us. GAge runs for Seren, screaming and crying. Just as NAte bails out to the shore, the waves die down. Thank the Lord! HE and Dad pulled it up long enough for everyone to pee and me to stop shak'n. It was so scary! Gage said all he was think'n was save my sister and I want to Live! Way I think is Dad felt safer in the middle of the Prince William Sound than on the bank. What a great story for our family to tell, and just think of how big of a tale it will be by the time Gage is 15.
OK, OK, OK so we get going in the boat and Nate put's his line back in the water while we troll. Everyone knows that Dad is probably done for the day. When Nate set's his hook, in a SEAGULL! I told him just to shoot it but he said "do you wanna tramatize the kids anymore", So NAte and Dad brought her in and un hooked one of the two. That seagull was mean! and the louder it was the more tears came from the front of the boat where the kids where with there heads under a coat. BUT! he saved it. They ended up free'n her with only one hook in it's chest. She flew away!
As we started pulling through the water again DAd say's " I think there is a hole in the boat, we are taken on a lot of water" Nate says no way it was just the water from the waves. I dont know if it was a hole or Dads subconcience saying it was time to get off the water? But we headed in from our exciting adventure.
AAAHHHH! What a day! Nate and I talked about it the whole way home hecouldnt stop gigle'n. I think it is a much better story than some fish tale we already had. It was a great day but I think it sucked the life outta my POP! He's gettn to old for all that excitment. BUT IT WAS GREAT!

2006-07-09T23:57:00.000-06:00

American Medical Association researchers have made a
remarkable discovery.
It seems that some patients needing blood transfusions may
benefit from receiving chicken blood rather than human blood. It tends to make the men cocky and the women lay better. Just thought you'd like to know!

us and a million

2006-06-29T23:10:00.000-06:00

I am watching that show about a group of friends that win 20 milion dollars a piece. I love it. What would that kind of money do to me? Well I'd be at the day spa and Gage would be buying an arcade NATE would be fishing on our water front property and Grace would have Toys r US in her bedroom that she wouldn't be sharing with Gage. Sarah would have a month in Hawaii with a nanny, My sister would have a huge home with a new car and a scholarship to do what ever she wanted, My dad and Lara could have what ever it is they would want like my dad retired and his own water front property, Seren would have whatever she wanted as if she doesn't already, The MAtties my in laws would be retired with a BBIIGGG home to fit everything they want, we'd all have nice new cars, my grandparents from Idaho would have a new motorhome and they'd be with me spending my money, and Heidi and Shana would have month long stays at Disney Land and we'd all have a month in Vegas with tons of spending money.

2006-06-28T21:57:00.000-06:00

I just really cant top Shanas last blog, her mother in law got to go to jail. That was so funny……………………..
So where, where you when the lights went out in Anchorage and all over Alaska?
I was at Walmart with my family and let me just tell you there are no extra lights in the bathroom. You may need to know this if you have children who have nervous bladders.
After reaching our home and my children going absolutely crazy half fear of “whats going on?” and ,more than half what do I do now? I am not even how sure how many times I tried to turn on the lights or use the micro or change my load of clothes over (by candle light) c’mon Tab how many times? THE ELECTRICITY IS OUT!
Just another mention of Tabs confusion. Giggles to self.

My kiddos

2006-06-23T22:10:00.000-06:00

My favorite picture ever.

So many pictures pass through my digital camera and this one has got to be my favorite. It was a big hit on Fathers day!

It was taken at Taku Lake just 2 days before Fathers Day.

Arent they gett'n so big?

Who'd have ever guessed Id be the mother of a 1 and 5 almost 6 year old.

2006-06-06T21:19:00.000-06:00

Here I am! Here I am!

Shana!

All is good here! My family is well again. my husband went to the Dr. today for an evaluation. basically what they said was to settle with the insurance company he will get better over time. I love the spine institute. i just wopnder what the settlement will be for. I hope for enough to get us into a home.

As for my recent adventures.... just loven life. I think the world is a pretty great place. I am loving my bible study group and the people there.

My sister and her kids are over and I just love it when they visit. We take turns pickn on kids. Its great. Our little mini me's. boy are we in for it.

As for todays society... I no longer feel that we should just blow up Iraq just bring our troops home. I think Bush is a terrible president. I think our young people are expposed to much "adultness" , launguage, ect. I think the Da Vinci code was probably just a good book the movie wasnt that great and it was all just fiction. I think we excpect the worst and it should be the other way around. I think list's are a daily essential and I think babies are great but it just keep's getting better as they grow. i think God is under rated and I think tooth pick skinny girls are just not real.

just some topic starters and thoughts from Tab

Baptised

2006-06-02T12:42:00.000-06:00

Baptized Current mood: curious Category: Religion and Philosophy
I am being water baptized on Saturday! I know its weird to some but I am so excited. This does not mean I am a bible thumper. It means I am just dedicating my purpose. Some will understand and some wont. But I do! So let me have it guys what do u think?

I really want to know.

2006-05-30T15:58:00.000-06:00

I SAID: I'd alway's be a kid........ I will in so many ways
I WANT: to go to Hawaii ...... with no kids!
I WISH: for financial independence.
I HATE: liars and people who only talk about themselves
I MISS: my grandparents in Idaho
I FEAR: falling back into a life I once loved and now know better
I HEAR: my husband say I love you
I WONDER: Will my daughter be just like me
I REGRET: ever doing the drugs I did for so long.
I AM NOT: a liar or weak
I DANCE: with my clothes on
I SING: in the car
I CRY: hardly ever
I AM NOT ALWAYS: strong but I am stronger than I once was
I MADE: the right decision to be a stay at home wife, and a happy one
WRITE: lists it makes me feel accomplished
GOAL: Quit smoking
1st thing: I wake up happy and smiling but groggy and looking for coffee

Tag to everyone who reads this

My weekend.

2006-05-30T15:52:00.000-06:00

This weekend was just great! Fro mthe black bear to the no responsibilities. My aunt has been doing a memorial day weekend get together for years and years but this was my first weekend. my whole family was happy! We had a stressful day one day but for the most part we just dealt. I didnt know what I was missing. luckily we pulled it together at the last minute and it was wonderful. My huband found a place with travis and I had Chrystal and everyone else. My dad and Aunt had a little thing but none of buisness. because I am making it that way. What I learned this weekend was just let it go. When you love someone unconditionally thats exactly what it means.

Im back

2006-05-16T18:23:00.000-06:00

i had to come home. Thats right blogger! I am back. My space will be good f0r jokes and picts but everyone has a my space now. AND! you cant talk crap about anyone. So honey I am home. I do need to do some customizing again so if anyone has any helpful hints let me know.

womens ass survey

2006-04-10T13:39:00.000-06:00

Women's Ass Size StudyThere is a new study just released by the American Psychiatric Association about women and how they feel about their asses. The results are pretty interesting:1. 85% of women surveyed feel their ass is too big.2. 10% of women surveyed feel their ass is too small.3. The remaining 5% say they don't care; they love him, he's a good man and they would have married him anyway.

2006-04-08T18:30:00.000-06:00

THE BEST POEM IN THE WORLD!
I was shocked, confused, bewildered
as I entered Heaven's door,
Not by the beauty of it all,
Nor the lights or its decor.

But it was the folks in Heaven
who made me sputter and gasp
the thieves, the liars, the sinners,
the alcoholics, the trash

There stood the kid from seventh grade
Who swiped my lunch money twice.
Next to him was my old neighbor
Who never said anything nice.

Herb, who I always thought
was rotting away in hell,
was sitting pretty on cloud nine,
Looking incredibly well.

I nudged Jesus, "What's the deal?
I would love to hear Your take.
How'd all these sinners get up here?
God must've made a mistake.
"And why's everyone so quiet,
so somber? Give me a clue."

"Hush, child," said He, "they're all in shock.
No one thought they'd be seeing you."

Judge NOT.

Author Unknown

friday night

2006-04-07T19:35:00.000-06:00

I wanna drink. I know no teenagers and I cant ask the in laws they dont support drinking. What will I do. Maybe head to my closet its the only place a mother of 2 can be alone. Ill have to nmake it to one of heidis margarita parties. I need out. All is well. hope u r all ok.

Tab

Homer teen dies of over dose

2006-03-25T23:18:00.000-07:00

I have always heard about Homer given most of my peep's are from that area. I have never understood small town politics, but I was very disappointed to see that the parents of a 19 year old girl felt that they had to defend their daughter from local ridicule after her death. I read what "mom" had to say about her little girl. She had been an apprentice for her father whom was an electrician that Nathan knew from Lands End last year. they where still there working this year. This story for many reason's touched my heart. This is from the Homer tribune.

Police suspect teen's death drug related
• Parents say Bethany Woodworth was more than just a statistic
By Layton EhmkeHomer TribuneBethany Faye Woodworth, 19, of Homer, was pronounced dead at Providence Hospital in Anchorage on Thursday morning, 24 hours after Homer police received an emergency call from one of her friends. The friend reported that Woodworth was unconscious and not breathing in a cabin at the base of the Homer Spit. Police report finding methamphetamines and cocaine on her person and suspect she may have died as the result of a drug overdose. However, Bethany’s parents know that drugs were not what their daughter was all about.Shane and Julie Woodworth want the community to know who their daughter was. According to Bethany’s father Shane, “she was a very loving and caring person, she had an awesome sense of humor and a big heart.” Shane, who works as an electrician, said Bethany was his apprentice for the past year.“She worked right by my side, and we had some of the greatest times together,” Shane said. “She was not some strung-out drug addict. She worked very hard, went to work every morning and never stole anything from us. Contractors were always telling me what a hard worker she was.” Through questions about the incident and investigation, the Woodworths know the threat of drug addiction is very real. “If you do this just one time, you can be addicted, and it can be stronger than willpower,” Julie Woodworth said. “We don’t want any other parent to go through this. As parents we have to be alert, as hard as it can be, and the kids have to understand how powerful this drug is. If anyone says it’s just recreational, they’re in denial.” “Bethany liked helping people. She wanted to be a psychologist to help kids. That’s all she talked about — going to help kids who lived through the hurricanes in Louisiana,” Shane said. Julie agreed. “But in the meantime, she couldn’t help herself,” she said. “Drugs were not my daughter. They were a dark component of her life, and she fought them. I don’t want her life to have been in vain.” “Bethany had this side of her and hung with the wrong crowd, but she was a very loving caring person, and funny, too. She had an awesome sense of humor and a big heart,” Shane and Julie both said. The Woodworths said Bethany battled her demons for quite a few years, fighting the drugs that poisoned her.“There is a rampant drug problem, and the kids don’t know how deadly this is. There’s nothing recreational about it,” Shane said. What may start out as a recreational thing can lead to heavier things, they said. Both parents want other parents to know that meth use can be difficult to detect, and that they should be aware of the warning signs.Julie said her final conversation with her daughter was a positive one. “She called at 11:30, saying ‘Mom, you’ll be so proud of me’,” as she told her about her day of running errands around town. “Make sure Dad calls me before he picks me up for work,” Bethany told her mother. “She sounded good,” Julie said. “But for whatever reason, she took something … we know our baby is in a good place and she’ll be with us forever.”Shane and Julie Woodworth described their daughter as magnetic and caring. “There were few people my daughter met that did not love being around her. Her smile brightened the room,” Shane said. Upon finding Bethany, EMS personnel attempted to revive her and then transported her to Anchorage via LifeFlight helicopter. Homer police say that witnesses told them Woodworth was last seen late the night before, and appeared to be under the influence of some kind of intoxicating substance. State Medical Examiner Dr. Franc Falico said he suspects the death was accidental, and a result of the adverse affects of drug use. A toxicology analysis has not yet produced results. Several students who attended their first two years of high school agreed that they remembered Woodworth as a nice person. Former classmate Tommy Bowden remembered her from his early high school years. “She was a good girl, and she tried in school — but like everyone, she had to deal with the typical teenage stuff,” Bowden said. Woodworth attended Homer High through her sophomore year in 2003.As they embrace her memory, the Woodworths extend thanks to the community for the support.A memorial account for the Bethany Woodworth Memorial Fund has been set up a Wells Fargo Bank, account number 6834466309. Bethany’s mother Julie has asked that in lieu of flowers, donations should be sent to South Peninsula Foundation or Hospice of Homer. Send cards to Julie and Shane Woodworth at P.O. Box 1012, Homer, Alaska, 99603. “She was the light of our life,” Julie said. “The good outweighed the bad — and we wouldn’t have traded our girl for anyone.”

??

2006-03-03T13:15:00.000-07:00

I email about 20 jokes out if not more to all of you. I am wondering do you get them? Have you put me in the junk mail or do I have your right addressses? Let me know !!!! Do you get Tabs funnies???????????????

Viagra

2006-03-03T13:07:00.000-07:00

woman asks her husband, "Would you like some bacon and eggs? A slice of toast and maybe some grapefruit and coffee?"He declines. "Thanks for asking, but I'm not hungry right now. It's this Viagra," he says. "It's really taken the edge off my appetite."At lunchtime she asked if he would like something. "A bowl of soup, homemade muffins, or a cheese sandwich?"He declines. "The Viagra," he says, "really trashes my desire for food."Come dinnertime, she asks if he wants anything to eat. "Would you like a juicy ribeye steak and scrumptious apple pie? Or maybe a rotisserie chicken or tasty stir fry?"He declines again. "No, still not hungry.""Well," she says, "would you mind letting me up? I'm starving."

25

2006-03-02T23:49:00.000-07:00

Im 25!!!

ok, this may not b bad 4 many but it was hard for me! I am really glad I survived this long I just never thought I'd see 23! surprise!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-24T18:29:00.000-07:00

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself (and doesn't feel even the least bit weird shutting your 'beer drawer' with her foot!)
A simple friend has never seen you cry. A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.
A simple friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend calls you after you had a fight.
A simple friend expects! you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!

2006-02-24T18:16:00.000-07:00

YOU KNOW YOU ARE LIVING IN 2006 when...
1 You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.
2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.
3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.
4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.
5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.
6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to hel
p you carry in the groceries.
7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen.
8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it.
10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee.
11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. : )
12. You're reading this and nodding and laughing.
13. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forward this message.
14. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.
15. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9 on this list.

AND NOW U R LAUGHING at yourself.

God blees America

2006-02-21T00:35:00.001-07:00

Two Arab terrorists are in a locker room taking a shower after their bomb making class, when one notices the other has a huge cork stuck in his butt.
If you do not mind me saying," said the second, "that cork looks very uncomfortable. Why do you not take it out?"
I regret I cannot," lamented the first Arab.
"It is permanently stuck in my butt."
"I do not understand," said the other.
The first Arab says, "I was walking along the beach
and I tripped over an oil lamp. There was a puff of smoke,
and then a huge old man in an American flag attire with a white beard and top hat came boiling out. He said,
"I am Uncle Sam, the Genie. I can grant you one wish."
I said, "No shit?"
God Bless America

2006-02-15T20:29:00.000-07:00

I am just catch'n up! I spent the last hour against my daughters will check'n up on my peeps!! I have my myspace blog and I bearly blog there but here I am! I am a new happier person now I have a home of my own. Not many visitors yet but its home! I miss you al so much! I am up at 8 to getr boy and kid sister off to school. Dads in Hawaii! My other sister is due in April so I talk with her but thats about it! (u no preggos) My husband and I spend to much time together but love it!!! My baby now jogs with a peg leg and my kindergartner is doing so good in school! Ojk off 2 bed to start again.... Call me guys I AM LONELY!!!!

2006-01-25T01:41:00.000-07:00

It was a great start for the day! It ended terribly! We are not getting the house! The neighbor lady was a horride crotchity lady that I couldnt tell if she was a liar or the land lord. This was it for Nate and Travis. Of course this was after they struggled with the heat for a long time! Result no heat! So after day's of anticipation and what not..........***** nothing! He raised the rent $50 when it was time to sign! I wanted him hurt and forced to see things my way! The other 2, thats right the boys wherent budging. And so, I live in piles and outside my dads just stunned. This was not my plan!!

I know I buck up but shit! You know!?~!?

I am back looking tomarrow and now my space is even more cluttered and lost and just ooohhhhhh! poop!

Thank you Travis for riding it out with us! We enjoyed your company and it was great to have another opinion EVEN IF IT WAS WITH NATE AND NOT TAB!:?

Thanks

2006-01-22T22:27:00.000-07:00

WE HAVE FOUND A PLACE

2006-01-04T01:59:00.000-07:00

I have decided to be creative with my blog

and speewed some inocent, nonintentinal, ramblings of mine.
My attempt at poetry

Damn that turned out fine.

2006-01-04T01:10:00.000-07:00

WELL HELLO 2006!!!!!!!!
(one ponders what needs to be fix)

I hope every one had as good a time as I!
Good friends, good jokes , and one of my hilarious hoax! (lol)

My Family at my side,
smiling and agreeing 2005
WAS A HELL OF A RIDE!

U no, I havent a resolution!
No public display of personal pollution!

I am just refus'in!

I am who I am,
and I'm bett'n next year
I will still be,
me ,

WWWWEEEEEE!

Maybe this time next year,
When U HEAR!!!
OK, WHO DID IT???

AGAIN I WILL STAND...........
& SCREAM IT

"THATS RIGHT IT WAS

mmmmmMMMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEeeeeee

What a way to BE???????????
Free!!!!

Dont u just wish u could C

how great 2005 was?

or my plan to survive for
2006!

2005-12-16T01:23:00.000-07:00

here i am

2005-12-03T00:31:00.000-07:00

FBI RecruitingThe FBI had an opening for an assassin. After all the background checks, interviews, and testing were done there were 3 finalists.Two men and a woman.For the final test, the FBI agents took one of the men to a large metal door and handed him a gun. "We must know that you will follow your instructions no matter what the circumstances. Inside the room you will find your wife sitting in a chair. Kill Her!"The man said, "You can't be serious, I could never shoot my wife."The agent said, "Then you're not the right man for this job. Take your wife and go home."The second man was given the same instructions. He took the gun and went into the room. All was quiet for about 5 minutes. The man came out with tears in his eyes, "I tried, but I can't kill my wife."The agent said, "You don't have what it takes. Take your wife andgo home."Finally, it was the woman's turn. She was given the same instructions,to kill her husband.She took the gun and went into the room. Shots were heard, one after another.They heard screaming, crashing, banging on the walls. Aftera few minutes, all was quiet.The door opened slowly and there stood the woman.She wiped the sweat from her brow."This gun is loaded with blanks" she said.........."I had to beat him to death with the chair."MORAL: Women are evil. Don't mess with them.

2005-12-03T00:14:00.000-07:00

I would rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not.

Recently I had a get together at my house where apparently my mouth again overloaded. I guess there where some things my friend didnt want said a loud. I however did not realize that by what I said would make anyone feel uncomfortable. I love my friend and dont think that she has anything to be ashamed of. I am publiclly apologizing for offending anyone. I am also apologizing for myself.. I am an open book. I think if anyone reading this wants to knw something about me I will answer. Ask away!!! I am me and proud to be so. I want it known. I am not about to lie or mislead anyone. Please feel free, where I have been is who I am today and though not all pretty I am not ashamed but proud!

2005-11-21T22:35:00.000-07:00

Can’t say that any day, or every day even, ,,,,

that there may be something that will pop up and just try plow’n you over!!!!!!!!!!!
but on that day,,,,,,,,,,,
with what ever obstacle it may be in front you,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

JUST STAND UP STRAIGHT & SAY
“Bring it on MOTHER ***********”

2005-11-21T00:20:00.000-07:00

My mom checked out my blogs and she says that I am feeling sorry for myself!!!!!!!!!!! I want anyone who also thinks that to know NO I am not!

I have had a lot of things happening here lately and I have been stressed. Pitty is not what I am looking for maybe it was and outlet?? Well I hope all is well with everyone! I am fine and after Nates injections hopefully he will be better to. Our kids are growing like crazy and making us smile everyday.

Friends- Thank you for your patience lately and hopefully soon we can visit.

2005-11-15T23:35:00.000-07:00

Coffee at my house all r welcome!

2005-11-14T23:10:00.000-07:00

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BAD day!! not really bad day but evening and on.... I hate it when I just cant get it. Whatever it is I dont have it today. ****!!!!!!!!!!!!

Help me?

2005-11-12T22:38:00.000-07:00

I am FRUSTRATED, HURT, CONFUSSED blah , blah, blah, I am coming to my fellow bloggers searching out the answer to Y?????????????????
I have never really come to the blog with personal issues……..
BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know this girl! She needs some help!! Her 5 year old is either screwaming at the top of his lungs he hates her or he is doing exactly the opposite of what she said.

WHY? Not spank??? Fear of to much temper or THE DISAPPROVMENT of her PEEPS! You know the adults who you look towards when inside you search for a comforting feeling but all you see is……………………….

YEAH!! They went to sleep in 15 minutes.

Inside I am screaming

“ I wore them out for 45 minutes before your turn!!!!!!!!”
Current Mood: weird

2005-11-10T12:10:00.000-07:00

Hi guy's! I moved. I got an account at another blog site. I have not stoped writing here or began writing more there I am still checkn htings out and trying to customize my other one so please stay in touch! and let me know what you think!

2005-11-07T11:55:00.000-07:00

Who I once was is not who I am now, but it made me this way!! AND, thats OK with me.

Maybe its not the journey, its the destination? or is the destination, not the journey?

2005-11-07T11:12:00.000-07:00

In two days tomorrow will be yesterday.
Today is no special day and I have no particular reason for writing to you...
I have no news to tell you.... nor any problems to discuss with you.... or gossip to tell you...
It's only one of those happy moments.. when I thought of you... and I would like to share these thoughts with you...
MANY SMILES BEGIN BECAUSE OF ANOTHER SMILE...

Keep scrolling, and if you don't smile, then I believe you must be dead!!! Always have good self esteem... Take care of your friends, especially those dearest to you... Take care of your body... But most of all find time to relax...Big Hug from your friend... To The World You Might Be One Person; But To One Person You Might Be the World.
(a note from my Grandfather I just personalized it with something that makes me smile)

2005-11-06T23:45:00.000-07:00

Every year!! I always love it!!!!!!!!
But, I am getting older and the 21 year olds keep get'n younger:?

WE go every year, with the exception of last year I was in labor. My husband and I know most of the Anchorage Chapter and Fairbanks Chapter of the Hells Angels. AND proudly so... and for Halloween I can always excpect a good time. I started going to the HAlloween party at 20 witch meant I kept my head down and pretended I was 21. At 18 when I met most of them I was a stripper, who knew everything, and looked it!!!!??
"I didnt have to be the best look'n girl in the room as long as I believed it, they would!"
Well when I walked in to the party this year, I could tell what the "know it all" party girls where thinknig but they DIDNT KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING :~)
"ITS OK HONEY, YOU WILL LEARN" (and it will probably not be by taking the easy road) No I was not judging I just remember all the lessons I had yet to learn.
I caught myself thinking back to "the days?" and realized that just maybe
"THESE ARE THE DAYS" (for me )
(BACK to the party) We spent time with old friends caught up on life and realized next Halloween Nate and I would be sitt'n right there, together, older and reminising about this year!
AND- this year I was older and ALTHOUGH I no longer know everything ,,,,,, smarter !
We finished the night early,
and just as we got in o bed the phone rang!
Apparently our baby girl wanted to come home and sleep in her bed- and that was fine with us:?

2005-11-06T21:38:00.000-07:00

If you read this,
if your eyes are passing over this right now,
even if we don't speak often,
please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad.
en you're finished, post these instructions on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

Some wedn picts

2005-11-06T14:05:00.000-07:00

Stolen from Lara

2005-11-04T01:01:00.000-07:00

Stolen from Ezma
X your confessions:
[X ] I'm afraid of the quiet.
[X ] I'm afraid of the dark
[X]I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.
[X ] I've run away from home.
[ ] what's political music?[
] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[X] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I love Disney movies.
[x] I am a sucker for eyes.
[] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ X] I bite my lip when i'm turned on.
[X] I bake well.
[x] I have worn pajamas to class.
[X] I own something from Abercrombie.
[] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[X] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I am self-conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[x] I have tried alcohol
[x] I have drank alcohol on a regular basis.
[x] I have tried a cigarette.
[X] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I am really ticklish
[x] I love chocolate.
[X ] I bite my nails.
[X] I am comfortable with being me.
[X ] Seen a shooting star
[ X] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of your nose.
[ X] Swore at your parents.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] Bitten someone.
[X ] Gotten the chicken pox
[X ] Crashed into a car.
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[] Had feelings for someone who didn't like you back.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[x] Been On A Plane.
[] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi.
[X ] cried in public.
[X] ran out of gas at the gas station

Add one of your own

I think that she is

2005-11-04T00:50:00.000-07:00

I think that she is beautiful!

I want to b

2005-11-04T00:37:00.000-07:00

ORGANIZED
I want to b, and I want to…………………………. But……………………I just cant.

I have a bunch of direction printed off from the net but somehow it alludes me.

Why on earth is this so difficult????????????????????

If Beauty

2005-11-04T00:19:00.000-07:00

If beauty is in the eye of the beholder……..
Why do I feel I have to be wearing makeup to go out?

Neighbor Girls

2005-11-03T22:10:00.000-07:00

We have these 2 sweet little girls that live next door. Everyday they come over stay for dinner and go home before bed. Do their parents not want to see them? Do they not like their moms cook'n? Would it be fair to ask for grocery money???
Dont get me wrong we love them and they are always welcome but is it ever our turn? My husband was home with the kids tonight and the mom called and asked if he would watch them while they went to Eagle River. OK he said yes, but ,,, they dont know him!
Then they where like an hour late.
OK!
Well just alittle somehting that I was thinkn.

2005-11-03T22:09:00.000-07:00

I have just been experimenting with my templates and tryb to figure out what to blog about.

SORRY

2005-10-31T23:19:00.000-07:00

I MISSED COFFEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wish Id have been able 2 make it.

What did u say about me?

2005-10-31T23:18:00.000-07:00

2005-10-31T23:17:00.000-07:00

A White Halloween

"I'm dreaming of a White Halloween, with every Hershey Bar I give out. May your Halloween be happy and white, and may all your pumpkins shine bright." -(Sung to the tune of White Christmas.)

2005-10-31T23:01:00.000-07:00

Happy Halloween

:)

2005-10-31T17:59:00.000-07:00

My little girl is ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cant believe it but it is true...

We had so much fun &

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR EVERYTHING!!!

2005-10-31T00:37:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt like you couldnt be yourself around your closest people but in front of a crowd you could be the real you???????

Rachels Getting Married

2005-10-30T03:16:00.000-07:00

Rachels Bachlorette / Costume Party

2005-10-27T02:06:00.000-06:00

FOOT IN MOUTH

2005-10-27T02:05:00.000-06:00

FOOT IN MOUTH????
Oh but I did, those of u in complete disbelief!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
& I truly didn’t mean 2…………..
Look let me just start out by saying I recently lost a CLOSE! Friend & I’d hate 2 lose another!!
But …………TONIGHT I REALIZED -   ALL friendships r different.
I’d like 2 say I m pretty blunt and upfront but yes I have “manners”(4 lack of a better word)  If I have a problem I don’t beat around the bush…

SO-
I’M there and all is well… Really I am happy to b out of the house and starting to feel comfortable with the idea my family can hang out with her family and it’s comfortable…. UNTILLLLL
I SAY:  what 2 me is PLAYFUL BANTER
TO HER:    I am supposing was rude!!  I  brought up this situation we had a couple days previous, that I believed was behind us!  Truthfully I wasn’t mad in the first place I thought I had been only voicing my opinion,  not preaching or judging.
TO HER:  was criticism…. So 2night when I said it joking with her…. YES!!  I think she took it personally.
I have apologized a couple times,,, still it bothers me,

ON 1 HAND:  I was trying 2 cheer her up and make her laugh. I failed and made it uncomfortable.  I did use my version of comedy but apparently it was harsher than intended.
IN MY DEFENSE=  the friendship that ended was one In a million and she got me, she understood ME!  I guess in trying to fill some of that dependency I just assumed  this friend would get “MY INTENTIONS!!
               Again let me remind you it was to make her laugh!!!  Give her a little fire, a little pep’ Everyone has  been so serious lately!

ON THE OTHER HAND:  I could have just avoided the whole situation by just avoiding the subject,
But in my head it wasn’t an issue.

I am me….. And I am not one to explain but my husband said that I may have sounded serious!!  My serious “CHIT CHAT” is nothing like that!  Its much louder and 2 the point!!!

Still this friend has been a good one and these are stressful times for all I just wanted to say…….
     Its possible I expected 2 much and I apologize.  I guess I just assumed SHE  understood by no means was I being spiteful  I guess since when I left it felt uncomfortable ,
IT  WAS STILL IN MY HEAD BUG’N ME!

OUR PUNKINS

2005-10-26T12:17:00.000-06:00

THIS ONE Creepy Smiler is the boys-he and the neighbor girls did it and I put a color changing LED and its great.

> The Smiler Cat with the hands is Mine And Graces we used her handprints!!:?

The one that has eyes looking up from the ground and he says BOO!! Mine as well^

The Spider below is LARAS

Seren went with the Black Cat AND this is the punkins!!!!!!!!!!!

STASH

2005-10-26T00:44:00.000-06:00

TODAY-
I had coffee with my lady friends. They r great.. Each one different!
& COOOOL!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, I was late….BUT….not as late as 1. :? That’s great ‘cause I am usually “THE 1” Shana , I hope we didn’t wear out our welcome. ( I no I was ok it was “them”)

ALSO 2DAY, I am did a poster with Gage & read him a book because I felt like he & I had not had our time lately.
Baby’s tooth will b any minute. Grumpy yes!! But still I FORGIVE her!!!!!!!!!

I AM GOING 4 PUMPKIN PICTS NOW!!!

THEY ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-10-25T00:57:00.000-06:00

Just give up!

TABS billions....

2005-10-24T13:16:00.000-06:00

* A billion seconds ago it was 1959.
* A billion minutes ago Jesus was alive.
* A billion ideas / mistakes ago made me the TAB I am today.
* A billion whims ago I was an all knowing invinsible teenager.
* A billion "yeah rights" ago kids where "ICKYY".
* A billion dollars ago was only 8 hours and 20 minutes, at the rate the government spends it.

2005-10-20T22:26:00.000-06:00

OK

2005-10-20T22:25:00.000-06:00

Ok now this is SOOOOOOOOOO, cool!
I have Microsoft Online and I can type my blog here and it just posts.  Regular word was cool but this makes it a bit cooler.

     Ok so Nate and I met with my uncles Real Estate Broker and he says if we follow his plan he can have us in a place of our own in 90 DAYS!!!!!!!!  I am so excited!!  I am also scared.  I guess it just made me realize that I am old.  Not really but you know what I mean.  I am going to have even more responsibility and what if I fail?  Just a hundred questions making me wonder.  WHAT IF????
  As far as everything else I have been working with some collection companies and taking care of the kids.  I thought when school started that it was going to be so boring,,,,NOPE!  It is amazing how there is still never enough time in the day.

PONDERISMS

2005-10-19T12:18:00.000-06:00

PONDERISMS ·

Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway. ·
There are two kinds of pedestrians: the quick and the dead.
Life is sexually transmitted.
Health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die.
The only difference between a rut and a grave is the depth. ·
Some people are like Slinkies. Not really good for anything, but you still can't help but smile when you see one tumble down the stairs.
Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing. ·
Whenever I feel blue, I start breathing again.
All of us could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no attention to criticism.
In the 60's, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal.
How is it one careless match can start a forest fire, but it takes a whole box to start a campfire?
Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?
Why does your OB-GYN leave the room when you get undressed if they are going to look up there anyway?
Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!
If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that Acme crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?
If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
Does pushing the elevator button more than once make it arrive faster? ·
Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?

TO: S.T.A.S.H.

2005-10-19T10:54:00.000-06:00

ASS

2005-10-19T10:37:00.000-06:00

Women's Ass Size StudyThere is a new study out about women and how they feelabout their asses! I thought the results were pretty interesting:85% of women think their ass is too big...10% of women think their ass is too little...The other 5% say that they don't care, they love him,he's a good man, and they would have married him anyway!!!

2005-10-19T10:28:00.000-06:00

2005-10-16T13:56:00.000-06:00

2005-10-16T13:50:00.000-06:00

JUST BEAUTIFUL

2005-10-16T01:34:00.000-06:00

This is a beauty and I found it while dinkn hope it doesnt piss any one off just beautiful....

Grandpa made this mailbox

2005-10-16T00:55:00.000-06:00

2005-10-12T13:10:00.000-06:00

So, questions to ponder:How far should this new mother push parenting issues that I feel need some work?
How much homework is enough for a third grader?
How do you modify the behavior of a parent to stop it in the child?

A friend of mine was pondering these here questions and being the perfect parents that all of us are I was wondering if y'all no what the instructions of life read on this topic???

(yes I over slept and the kid was late for school) lolololololo

Morning Show with Tab

2005-10-11T10:44:00.000-06:00

This morning I got up and .............. I FELT OLLLDD

"MAN O MAN" ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

I WAS SO GRETCHY, Grumpy I mean ,,

THAT I COULDNT STAND ME SO ...........

I GROUNDED ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No laundry, dishes or shitty diapers !!!!!!:)

SO GO 2 MY ROOM :}

& THINK ABOUT THAT :>

o please no , no , noooo, ooookkkk

2005-10-11T04:28:00.000-06:00

2005-10-10T11:08:00.000-06:00

GOOD DAY EVERYONE!!!! I AM NOT FEELING VERY BEAUTIFUL 2DAY SO I THOUGHT IF I POSTED SOME BEAUTY IT WOULD B A POWER OF SUGGESTION THING!

ACTUALLY, WHO CARES U CANT SEE ME!!!!

2005-10-10T01:24:00.000-06:00

MAGICAL MEMORIES.

2005-10-09T23:27:00.000-06:00

It was a first in so many ways!!! This is the 1st black eye. O & yes it is 2 days old here. 1st day it was bloody, 2nd it was black and blue! U should see the other guy!!!!! NOOOOO! She fell from my bed. I turned to changed the channel and WWHHAAAMMMM!
The 1st barrett!!:) I have waited all 11 months for this day after the bath I lotioned her hair into spikes and velcroed that sucker up there... :) tomorrow elmers glue. That's right folks she is a GIRRLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
& THE FIRST TIME SHE STOOD UP ON HER OWN!!!!! Of course Lara and I where 2 astonished to the act itself to get a picture but it was a once in a life time.

that's right our little girl is grown up:?
AND I don't even like kids who talk or walk! Kidding

2005-10-09T02:50:00.000-06:00

Ok here I am again. I have just had the cold from hell and I have been tryn 2 get better. 2night I had new mom and dad watch the kids actually I was prievledged 2 a nite out with my husband. We had a great time.!
Since last time I poured my guts out things have really improved. All is good man. Dad and I maybe as good as we once where. We can talk any way. I have 2 not blame him 4 every thing I get and at. I need 2 push my energy in a different direction.
NO tab the world doesn't revolve around u.
Any ways will write later. Hope u r all good.

Did u like the Color test?

2005-10-04T01:25:00.000-06:00

2005-10-03T19:06:00.000-06:00

http://ColorQuiz.com

:)

2005-10-02T15:47:00.000-06:00

Its just one of those days. I took this pict b4 my shower so we will c if I feel better:)

MY SPECIAL PLACE

2005-09-28T11:26:00.000-06:00

This is 1 of my favorite picts. I just c paradise..... I have a fascination with the photography of STUFF. I love it. I am going to try my new hobby myself. I just wanted to share "MY SPECIAL PLACE" WITH ALL OF UUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

2005-09-27T23:06:00.000-06:00

This is mmyyyyy pict of the POLAR BEAR.....
So do u no how 2 catch a polar bear????
Find a hole in the ice, put a ring of peas around it............when the bear bends over to c what they r.......................... kick him in the ice hole :}

OK, ok , ok OK

2005-09-26T23:09:00.000-06:00

Should I give my blog address to people I want to talk about?? kidding.... People like my new step mom? or my husband?? I may want 2 talk about them,, witch is crazy because I never thought of myself as someone who talked behind others backs maybe.... i am .... I GOSSIP..... OK
SO I GOSSIP.......

2005-09-26T23:07:00.000-06:00

Heres another one..........................

Here I am

2005-09-26T22:57:00.000-06:00

Here I am.... I had no idea I was so popular. There will b days I check out my blog and theres no comments. I have just been taken care of my kids. My husband ccame home for a day and a half this last weekend, witch means, I stop everything and I spend every moment with him. Not because I have 2 because I want 2. I miss him so much sometimes.
Right now I am trying to figure out my credit report and pay bills. I hate sending money to people and not getting anything 2 show. U know what I mean pay the electric and u dont get anything in your hand to leave with....May b its just me......... Hopefullly it will end me up with a house of my own.
SO I am under so much pressure,,,,,,,I have 2 think of something really great to blog:)

???

2005-09-20T00:02:00.000-06:00

I was wondering how u get the deal at the bottom that counts how many people look at the blog?
& what about adding links and fonts that sorta thing????

2005-09-19T22:31:00.000-06:00

I DONT HATE, TAKES 2 MUCH ENERGY

2005-09-18T22:29:00.000-06:00

I am so happy for him

IT WASN'T ME......

2005-09-09T11:56:00.000-06:00

ok yep, it was...... I just felt like juicen it up a little with Mrs. Anna. I think I just may like readn about other people's issues better than tell'n ya'll 'bout mine. :? Well I have just been try'n to get some more comments ...so....BRING IT ON SISTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS EVER

2005-09-08T21:36:00.000-06:00

Well I have been coming to vent at the computer so much that everyone is concerned if I am doing ok? I am, itâ€™s hard letting go of another friend â€˜my dadâ€™ but I am dealing with it, (the other being my best friend of ten years whom has become a monster to everyone around her due to choices of her own) Itâ€™s getting better thanks to all of you. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has listened and left comments be it on the blog or my email. I am ok, I am not mad and I looking forward to venting at the next episode of AS TABS WORLD TURNâ€™S.

Giving away my dad.

2005-09-06T16:05:00.000-06:00

I am in charge of decorations.
\I am also giving away dad. It's gone be great!!

It was about 5 years ago my father gave me away to my husband. I am obliged to return the favor. I am his best WO-man! I will proudly do so!?!?!?!?!?

The colors are red and silver. I am on my own with the decorations so, I AM ASKING FOR ANY HELP YOU COULD GIVE!! ANYONE????? PLEASE!!!!!!!!! I don't have a lot of money but I have to make it perfect. I am decorating a bar...And they have invited the entire stripper community of Anchorage. There are about ten tables and a cake and gift area, and as I find out more I will vent I mean tell you as I get it.

LOST IT

2005-09-02T20:11:00.000-06:00

I just spent an hour blogging only to hit spell check and lost it all. It was prize winning stuff. Dang it!!!

2005-09-02T13:33:00.000-06:00

This is a pict of little ones I LOVE

2005-09-02T13:08:00.000-06:00

This is a picture I took the other day of my Daughter!!! Thought I might share her

SMILE

Where was I when???????

2005-08-26T20:02:00.000-06:00

Ten Years ago...............
I was 14 years old and I was leaving my life with my Mom and family to start a new life with my Dad. At the time it was the scariest time of my life. In Idaho I had always had the safe house of my grandparents, all the friends I had ever known and my MOTHER! Whom, never realized just how much I needed her. It was all I had known. So there I began on the adventure of my life time.
Five years ago................
I was having my son. Whom saved my life from a life of badness. I was engaged to my husband and moving from a one bedroom apartment to a five bedroom house. I was coming to grips with the idea of growing up.
One year ago..................
I was ready to have my daughter, sick of being pregnant, and trying to make my marriage survive. We had hit some bumps to put it safely. I was getting the house ready for my bundle of joy.
One week ago................
I was moving from our big house where we had been for the past 5 years. My husband was going to Kenai for the week and I was beginning the weaning process with my daughter.
Also last weekend, my son and daughter and I went to point Waransoff and watched the sunset with our ice cream and the boy kept telling me "isn't this paradise?" and so we planned a picnic with daddy for the next night when he got home. And, it was great showing daddy our little bit of paradise.
SO HERE I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!